Wednesday, April 29, 2020

You Belong Among the Wildflowers


“You belong among the wildflowers, you belong somewhere you feel free.”

It’s pretty clear from those lyrics that Tom Petty, honorary Californian, spent some idyllic hours in a poppy field. Springtime in California brings rolling waves of wildflowers, which cascade down vibrant green hills and dot the rocky coastal landscapes. (The first glimpse I got of a poppy superbloom was driving through the Grapevine--CA’s infamous Hwy 5 mountain pass—where the hilltops were so orange I thought they were on fire.) For over 30 years I have made annual pilgrimages to some of the loveliest wildflower trails on the north coast. Tom captured the feeling—you do feel free—when you emerge from your winter hibernation to bask in the chaotic, colorful, joyous beauty of the first flowers of spring.

redood violets
But this springtime is different. Yes, the wildflowers are blooming, and as always, my body aches to belong somewhere it feels free. But it’s springtime during Covid-19, which means we are still sheltering in place. Our parks, beaches, and trails are closed, and we are limited to outings within walking distance of our house. So now let me just add this caveat: we are living during a pandemic killing thousands of people, so not being able to walk among the wildflowers is a small price to stay to enforce the social distance we need to minimize the loss of human life.That really goes without saying. So, take this post in the spirit in which it was intended: as a love letter to wildflowers. I may not be seeing many this year, but I can share my photos from years past, so you can enjoy their beauty, their stamina, and the simple fact that beauty abounds even in the midst of a crisis.

Poppies and lupines
Let the love fest begin! At present, I feel profound gratitude for the California poppy. This native plant also goes by nicknames like “flame flower” and “cup of gold”, which better conveys both their glorious color and their god-like stature, (which seems appropriate for our state, says a native California with all pride). They are among the first to bloom in spring, and they reseed in open meadows, along roads, in garden beds. They are prolific, resilient, and yet oddly resistant to taming – try transplanting one and you will rarely succeed. As I write this, California’s early adoption of social distancing flattened the curve and helped curb the spread of Covid. Under the leadership of Governor Newsom, Californians demonstrated that same reliance and independence, which helped keep more of our community alive.

Tower of Flowers, wild radish
And just like peanut butter needs jelly, the California poppy, IMHO, is always better when served with a side of lupine (shown with poppies above). These purple or blue flowers usually bloom at the same time as poppies, and when you happen upon fields where they mix, your artist’s heart will skip a beat. Its name is Latin for “wolf,” because it grows in nutrient deprived soil. It was originally thought to deplete soil, but is now credited with helping restore it. And a bit of trivia: University of California chose its school colors of blue and gold, because the campus they built in 1868 was surrounded by poppies and lupine.

I am lucky to live within walking distance of a redwood forest, so the daily sightings of new blossoms thrill me—just ask my kids (I offered to give them a $1 each time they correctly identified a flower). This year’s award for first flower goes to Trillium, a lovely white (fading to purple) lily-like flower that looks heavenly when illuminated by sunlight filtered through the canopy. Much easier to miss is the aptly named white Modesty, the charmingly named pale Milkmaids, and tiny yellow Redwood violets. In late April and early May (if trails are open) venture into any redwood forest for a display of showy pink wild rhododendrons, tall shrubs that get to be several stories tall as they reach up toward the light, dotting the forest with bursts of pink.

Footsteps of Spring
Coastal walks reveal different varieties still, and this year I was sad to miss my favorite early bloom, “Footsteps of Spring.” They often occur on paths and the flowers look like flattened or pressed flowers. They come by their name honestly, as they grow about a foot-step apart from each other. Expect to see coastal daisies, deep red Mendocino paintbrush, purple Salsify, plus flowering mustard. There’s a section on the southern part of the Fort Bragg Coastal Trail (now open to locals) where the wild radish grows so tall and dense it blocks all views of the ocean for a few yards. I’ve dubbed it the “Tower of Flowers” and it feels magical to walk through it. Also keep your eyes peeled for the native, symmetrical succulent Dudleya, which is sadly now being poached off the coasts.

Nuttall's Tootort, growing out
of a redwood tree knothole

Friends, this is just a tiny taste of some of California’s beautiful wildflowers. I am so grateful for all the photos posted to social media by friends sheltering-in-place. The snaps of your favorites from your own local walks connect me to you and to nature. We all belong among the wildflowers!


Tuesday, April 7, 2020

Saving Face During a Pandemic



Three weeks into our “shelter in place” order and we are seeing hopeful signs that the curve is flattening here in CA. It is spring, and hope is what we need. The sheer brutality of this pandemic…there are no words. Every day we mourn the dead, we grieve for those who could not say farewell, we fear for those we love. We try not to cry in front of our children, or medicate our way through each night. We watch, we hope we are spared, and we bear witness. So, despite having little desire to write, write is what I will do so we won’t forget. We can’t repeat this tragedy.

Like many last week, I had to curb my news-watching as the body count soared. I wanted to help by doing more than staying at home. So, I started making fabric masks for my family. Then on Facebook I offered to make them free for locals. For four straight days I sat at my dining room table and sewed fabric masks until my muscles pinched, my vision blurred, and my foot cramped on the presser foot—as of today I’ve made 70. My curve is bending too, demand has slackened, and my body has some time to recuperate.

The decision to make masks was an easy one. I needed to feel useful AND I had the raw materials. I am not an accomplished sewer by any stretch, but I have made baby quilts for quite a few kids over the years. And I love fabric—I collect scraps from thrift stores because at Christmas we have ditched the wrapping paper in favor of wrapping gifts in colorful cloth bags (try it you will NEVER go back, and the environment will thank you). Like many fabric lovers, I can’t bring myself to toss any of the bold, loud, colorful fabric scraps I’ve accumulated over the years. Who knew they’d come in handy during a pandemic?

But the mask-making became a form of therapy for me. The fabric was nostalgic—here was the last piece from my youngest daughter’s quilt, which she still sleeps under today (she’s 17)! And here were remnants from the placemats our crafty friend group made 20 years ago. I remembered dining off them at their houses, eating the latest concoctions from Moosewood or the Green’s cookbook. Community, friendship, love, gratitude, these memories were mingling with my sadness and it was ok. And with each new mask I sewed for a friend in the community, I stitched some of that beauty, that connection, into their masks. I chose fabric for people I thought would appreciate it – my friend Lisa, who has been my parent-coach and confidante all these years, was given a mask with Lily’s fabric. My friend Tracy—a foodie and gardener, got the strawberry pattern. All of my mom friends received floral masks because they have brought such joy and color into my life and those of my kids. I just started calling their masks Face Flowers.

But just as every fabric has the unfinished, uglier side, so did my therapy. I used this manic sewing to get out some of my frustration over how this national health crisis has been mishandled by our administration. When the sewing machine runs hard it has an aggressive staccato sound that provided the background music for a lot of expletive-filled mental ranting. How was it possible that novice seamstresses like me were the go-to for personal protective equipment? Mask maker groups blossomed around the country, answering the desperate pleas from health care and other essential workers who were re-using masks and needed an extra layer of protection. After I finish this post, I am delivering a dozen masks to a friend who works at the local clinic so that her patient advocates have some extra protection.

But now I am in a new phase of therapy that brings me back to my community. People are sending me photos of themselves in their masks (groups here are families living in one place). The stories behind the mask requests make me want to weep. For example, my daughter Roxanne discovered her passion for singing thanks to a local musical theater company here, Gloriana. During her performance years, I put in more than a few shifts at the concession stand where I befriended a charming older woman who gave me the shirt off her back when I admired it (actually she bought another one so we could both have one). A mutual friend requested masks for her, and her husband who’s battling cancer, and two extras for the caretakers. Sweet, sweet love and gratitude went into her masks; this was the moment when I imagined them as the fabric version of chicken soup.

That is my mask journey. Should you find yourself with a stack of fabric, and the desire to do something for your community, I’ve included a couple links to good tutorials.

Also, if you are in need of masks, you most certainly can ask me. I’m trying not to add to the postal service’s load, so just local requests for now. If you are a health worker and need multiple masks, I found a great group on Facebook called the Mendocino Mask Makers (almost 300 members!) that takes requests. https://www.facebook.com/groups/726774797726939/

Mask tutorials
No elastic? no problem!

Can’t sew? no problem!